So I met a girl. From practically the very first moment we really clicked. I was so surprised, that usually never happens to me. She definitely seemed really interested in me, in some capacity at least. So we met again, and, perhaps foolishly, I'd convinced myself it was, for once in my life, a straight up old fashioned clear cut date (not that I don't know they aren't without their foibles and awkwardnesses). This is largely due to how enthusiastic about me she continued to seem in her messages and emails to me in the weeks before we met again. This vibe continued we when met, and we got on so well, and there were moments I thought we were flirting clearly.
We've met one more time, and the chemistry just seemed to be even better, we got on like a house on fire. There were moments during that last occasion when I could have sworn on my life that we were seriously flirting. I thought "if ever I've experienced flirting, this is it". But then by the end of day, I suddenly got a strong impression that I was totally mistaken, and she really likes me, but as a potential really good friend. She's such a wonderful person, I think she really goes all out for people she thinks might be great friends. She kept referring to me as a potential close friend and stuff, which is obviously really lovely, but it definitely took the sheen off my prior state of jubilance to say the least, and I was just trying to hide it. She was also asking me some slightly ambiguous questions that I couldn't really pin down, but one possible (and likely) interpretation of mine was that she was trying to check that I just simply liked her as a person rather than had romantic aspirations. Though I'm not quite sure how she could have possibly missed my uber keeness, but these things can happen I suppose
And I do indeed really like her simply as the wonderful human she is. But I'm also head over heels about her as well, in a romantic way.
I was thinking to just let things continue as they are, possibly for months, before I finally tell her in all clarity how I feel about her. But now I'm thinking, shouldn't I just be honest with her, and tell her how I feel the next time I see her? After all, I see no reason why we can't continue to be friends if she does reject me.
Thoughts?