Whilst I do appreciate the sentiments you and Aya both express, I can also very much understand what Ayase is saying too. I think I spent a lot of my mid to late teens thinking that romance would just drop into my lap at some point, but as time went on and on, and I'm now knocking at 22 without so much as holding a girls hand, I quickly realised that maybe life isn't that convenient, and I could very well go my whole life on the same trajectory. People do die alone. It's just a statistical fact. I'd like to hope I'm not amongst those people, but it has to be someone right? It's a depressing thought, yet still one that remains on my mind on a frequent basis. It's sad to reflect on yourself when compared to your peers and what they're doing with their lives and how far behind you are. I'd like to remain optimistic, but it can be hard, especially with self esteem issues.