Today felt like one of those days when you just really don't get on with people. I always think it's easy to just think 'Oh, I'm into anime and stuff - It's not supposed to be easy like that', but the industry I work in is very social, so I often feel a bit like the odd one out. Not that I mind it for the most part - I've become pretty used to it by this point, and I'm good at putting on a bit of a mask when I need to. But still, there's always the odd days where you just feel like 'argh'.
I do worry sometimes if it's a bit of a chicken/egg scenario. I like socialising, but only in small doses, and with people I know well - for so long, especially at uni, I tried to force myself to push myself out of the box a bit, but it just felt so false and never seemed to get me anywhere - and then I'd just get even more frustrated. But over the past year, I sort of became comfortable with just being 'me' as I figured it gave me more enjoyment. But is that acceptance, or giving up? Now I wonder if I've almost gone in the other direction and shut myself off. And I thought by your twenties you were supposed to know, ha!