It feels like it's been a while since I posted anything but pretty much the workload at work has been stacked these past few months. I generally don't bring it up publicly as I felt it was out of character, but it has been a mess in all honesty. I have worked the last nine days straight (as my job often involves working weekends due to an event) and this month alone I've spent an additional 28 hours overtime. It's been rough so I want to briefly talk about how things are.
Now the thing about my role is that I am conflicted. I do enjoy the tasks that I have on my schedule, but the problem is that ever since early last year, the workload has doubled and I'm the only person available to get it done with no time during office hours to sort it out. To provide some context, my responsibility involves marketing, admin and sometimes video editing and data analyst type stuff for a specific field. What I do has a pretty big impact on the business, especially for the investment team and the boss, but there is no backup plan or additional staff to support me. I am on my own in this role of responsibility, so if I get ill or take time off work on the wrong days, the business takes a hit. While it sounds funny saying that, in reality it means I can't take time off like anyone else can. As I mentioned, I work our weekend events at times which is done virtually so I work from home, but this past weekend something went wrong so I had to work in the office alone. I do get the food expenses sorted at least.
Whenever I want to take time off or finish for the evening, I often receive notifications via WhatsApp because it's a platform that my boss loves to use for various discussions and topics for communication. I do get its usefulness but I had to mute it for my mental health, because while from their perspective it doesn't need to be done immediately it does make you think that its urgent and nobody wants to think about work on their personal time. As much as I hated how mismanaged my last job in 2018 was, at least I didn't have to do anything the moment I left the office each day. Now I have a work phone but it's not yet ready to be used since there's some stuff left to sort out on it.
Honestly the only reason I work hard is that I can keep the earnings going. The overtime that I have done for the past year has thankfully been paid (the first year wasn't due to a miscommunication on the contract, I blame the PA for that because they put 'overtime is not paid' when it is, it's just poor wording on their part), but in reality this also reduces the time that I have outside work. If you wonder why I don't actively post daily on the AUKN Discord or on the forums? It's because I am exhausted from work and don't have the energy to interact as much as I want to, like I would watch anime each night but I can't currently. Technically I can, but it might not be the best experience unless it's one that is highly anticipated that I am looking forward to watching for the sake of it.
During my spare time outside the job I also often work on my blog, and even though it doesn't receive any revenue whatsoever, I still find it rather rewarding. I do think the motivating factor for why I have kept my blog going for the past 11 years is because the stuff that I pick up often has a positive impact on the community, for instance helping others pick and choose what's available and see more of what to expect on the disc or packaging. This does take time to sort out in itself and I do my best to make the posts age well. The overview/unboxing field for stuff like this is rather niche so it's a fun little side project.
I am still motivated to continue building my collection of anime, games and whatnot, but I just wish my job was better managed. Last year I had a great team of staff who have all decided to resign from their roles, some weren't perfect but it was a shame to see them leave, though I wouldn't want to force them to stay for the sake of it. The new team is still solid but whether the business will grow and improve I have no clue. Earlier in the month I asked for a salary review in regards to how hard I've been working for the past year and the tasks that I had managed to sort out, however the manager felt that the review request was motivated by the excessive workload and they think that workload should be dealt with first before suggesting a pay raise. I understand their reasonings, but using the workload as an excuse for not paying me more is pretty stupid considering how integral I am. To me it feels like I am not valued enough I suppose.
After hearing those results, I have started preparations to look into other opportunities. This has been brewing for a while now but after working in the business for almost two and a half years I think I have enough skill to avoid the generic 'you need experience' excuse that recruiters have, however because of how varied my role is I don't have an easy path to take next - it could be data lead, marketing, admin, I have no clue. But unlike my co-workers I am not going to resign for the sake of it. I want to have that next opportunity secured before moving on, because to me it's better to have that planned out than just suddenly walking out with no idea what to do next and screw yourself over later.
To conclude this discussion - I suppose I am a workaholic. I work hard and want to be rewarded for it. At the same time, this role as it currently stands is not a healthy position, with the numerous amount of overtime and weekends being taken from time to time. I like to plan ahead so I am hoping to have 2024 be an interesting move for my future opportunities.
I do want to mention that I do try to reference my work here and there on places like social media and Discord, it's generally overshadowed and ignored by many, which I can completely understand. For many people's perspectives, they don't want to see that type of stuff brought up in a general chat or social media tweet line, and I get that - which is why I used the spoiler button on this post, so if you read all of this, fair enough I suppose you had time. I just felt that it was necessary for some of you to have some added context on how I've been doing considering everything that's been going on. Don't worry I'm not depressed or in a bad place or anything like that. I figured bringing this particular topic for once helps every now and then.