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Phobos said:
You’re you, I’m me. Together we are us. We are not you us! :p if he gets caught we just smuggle him a phone. It’s simple.
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I'm not a great smuggler - I can't keep a straight face, I'm clumsy as **** and I have principles! Those principles only go out of the window when I buy Toblerone because I'm too weak to boycott the makers for giving the chocolate gaps between the peaks! I HAVE NEEDS!
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
I'm not a great smuggler - I can't keep a straight face, I'm clumsy as **** and I have principles! Those principles only go out of the window when I buy Toblerone because I'm too weak to boycott the makers for giving the chocolate gaps between the peaks! I HAVE NEEDS!
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Then I’ll just smuggle it to him. Who wants to foot the transport costs?


You have no needs. Stop the excuses!
 
Phobos said:
I feel you on that one. Seems like literally everything Costs money.
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I don't want to sound resentful, but some people are lucky in that family members can offer financial support; I don't have that - if anything it's been the other way round, with me supporting my folks...I mean, I feel proud in that everything I've bought or owned, I've saved for it myself, but I've also had to make sacrifices...it just bites sometimes :(
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
I don't want to sound resentful, but some people are lucky in that family members can offer financial support; I don't have that - if anything it's been the other way round, with me supporting my folks...I mean, I feel proud in that everything I've bought or owned, I've saved for it myself, but I've also had to make sacrifices...it just bites sometimes :(
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I know exactly what you mean, I stayed at home for years just to help out my family, it literally broke me and I am so very glad to have moved out now. Honestly the best thing I ever did. You’re right that it sucks big time, it definitely takes a toll.
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
I came here looking for some interaction since I have lost friend
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Try having none in the first place! I guess that isn't as bad as losing friends you care about though
~AyaMachi~ said:
Dead, yes, but a soul nonetheless
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I'm not just nihilistic, but also sceptical atheist. My view is when you die, you just leave behind a stench and a half finished poker game

I don't know why but I'm in the mood to write quite dark and cynical now. In the boardroom of my moods sadness must have passed a motion. He's pretty emo. He just wants others to acknowledge his existence bless him
 
Captaaainuniverse said:
Try having none in the first place! I guess that isn't as bad as losing friends you care about though

I'm not just nihilistic, but also sceptical atheist. My view is when you die, you just leave behind a stench and a half finished poker game

I don't know why but I'm in the mood to write quite dark and cynical now. In the boardroom of my moods sadness must have passed a motion. He's pretty emo. He just wants others to acknowledge his existence bless him
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Eh, I have had friends, but life goes on - we go in different directions and whatnot. If they didn't move on naturally I pushed them away (didn't want to see anyone when I was depressed). I'm used to being alone; as an introvert I enjoy my alone time, and there are plenty of things I do by myself, but it's different to being lonely - you can have lots of cool friends and still feel like the lonliest bugger on the planet! Just a couple of good friends would be nice...

Hmmm, I'll have to learn how to play poker...:p
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
Eh, I have had friends, but life goes on - we go in different directions and whatnot. If they didn't move on naturally I pushed them away (didn't want to see anyone when I was depressed). I'm used to being alone; as an introvert I enjoy my alone time, and there are plenty of things I do by myself, but it's different to being lonely - you can have lots of cool friends and still feel like the lonliest bugger on the planet! Just a couple of good friends would be nice...

Hmmm, I'll have to learn how to play poker...:p
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You make an interesting point in what I call fake friendships, they possibly lead to more loneliness than being alone. I’ve always gone the minimal friends route. My friends are few in number but I know they’ll always be there. Even after being pushed away!

I’ve always valued quality over quantity in this regard.
 
Phobos said:
I know exactly what you mean, I stayed at home for years just to help out my family, it literally broke me and I am so very glad to have moved out now. Honestly the best thing I ever did. You’re right that it sucks big time, it definitely takes a toll.
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In all honesty I just feel numb these days. Since last year when things started to go down the tubes I guess I just adopted an indifferent attitude as a defence mechanism. I literally get up and just...don't care; I'm just existing but not actually "living"...I do admit it gets to me but at the same time for the sake of my sanity, I feel the need to keep up a false sense of happiness and optimism just to get through the day! I'm just not in a position where I can say, "yeah, sod this, I'm out..." Many may think it's easy and say, "just do it, get out of your situation" but unless you know my circumstances it's not as straighforward as you think! Then follows the obligatory, "am I doing enough? Should I be doing more to change my situation?" But the honest answer is, "I physically can't!"

Probably a little more than I needed to say but, it kind of feels good to get it out of my system...sorry guys, I don't mean to be negative!
 
Phobos said:
You make an interesting point in what I call fake friendships, they possibly lead to more loneliness than being alone. I’ve always gone the minimal friends route. My friends are few in number but I know they’ll always be there. Even after being pushed away!

I’ve always valued quality over quantity in this regard.
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I totally agree. Don't get me wrong I've had treasured friendships, but **** happens and life goes on; things change, nothing's set in stone...

But just to have a couple of strong friendships would be nice, to know that they're people you can count on when **** hits the proverbial fan...that you can tell anything too and they'll understand, but also call you out if you're being an idiot XD I need that in my life!
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
In all honesty I just feel numb these days. Since last year when things started to go down the tubes I guess I just adopted an indifferent attitude as a defence mechanism. I literally get up and just...don't care; I'm just existing but not actually "living"...I do admit it gets to me but at the same time for the sake of my sanity, I feel the need to keep up a false sense of happiness and optimism just to get through the day! I'm just not in a position where I can say, "yeah, sod this, I'm out..." Many may think it's easy and say, "just do it, get out of your situation" but unless you know my circumstances it's not as straighforward as you think! Then follows the obligatory, "am I doing enough? Should I be doing more to change my situation?" But the honest answer is, "I physically can't!"

Probably a little more than I needed to say but, it kind of feels good to get it out of my system...sorry guys, I don't mean to be negative!
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I know what you mean, I didn’t see a way out of my own situation. For all intense and purposes I was trapped mostly by a sense of obligation and just not believing things even could change. After a while I agree you do end up pretty numb however in my case I eventually stopped feeling that as the time went by I ended up getting to the point of suicide feeling very tempting. Again the sense of obligation helped stay my hand there. That unfortunately was one thing I was never able to just numb out. I genuinely wonder now how long it would have take for me to go that route or just lose my marbles entirely, again looking back I can see just how bad the cracks were. It’s quite scary.

I have to say I agree with the sentiment of just get out being the best thing to do mentally. Coming through what I have I also have to say it’s the hardest thing to do.

Letting things out your system is good, it’s when you store them up and can’t cope with them anymore that the real problems begin. If you ever need to talk or just rant at someone feel free to just yell indiscriminately my way.
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
I totally agree. Don't get me wrong I've had treasured friendships, but **** happens and life goes on; things change, nothing's set in stone...

But just to have a couple of strong friendships would be nice, to know that they're people you can count on when **** hits the proverbial fan...that you can tell anything too and they'll understand, but also call you out if you're being an idiot XD I need that in my life!
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Yes totally, as life goes by circumstances and people change. Sadly there’s not much people can do to alter that. I guess just keep spirits up as best you can and just let the friendships happen naturally.
 
Phobos said:
I know what you mean, I didn’t see a way out of my own situation. For all intense and purposes I was trapped mostly by a sense of obligation and just not believing things even could change. After a while I agree you do end up pretty numb however in my case I eventually stopped feeling that as the time went by I ended up getting to the point of suicide feeling very tempting. Again the sense of obligation helped stay my hand there. That unfortunately was one thing I was never able to just numb out. I genuinely wonder now how long it would have take for me to go that route or just lose my marbles entirely, again looking back I can see just how bad the cracks were. It’s quite scary.

I have to say I agree with the sentiment of just get out being the best thing to do mentally. Coming through what I have I also have to say it’s the hardest thing to do.

Letting things out your system is good, it’s when you store them up and can’t cope with them anymore that the real problems begin. If you ever need to talk or just rant at someone feel free to just yell indiscriminately my way.
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Thank you, it truly means alot that you can understand where I'm coming from...

Your post echoes pretty much how I've felt recently, cracks and all. I even remember (the day before joining this forum actually), I went out for a walk shortly after my Mum had made me feel guilty for being so down, and I just felt really s****y - I just didn't care and I went and sat alone on a bench on the mountain near where I live. Going to bed is the worst part because I don't always drop off to sleep straight away and I'm just lying there with my thoughts, which are often the worst...
 
Phobos said:
Yes totally, as life goes by circumstances and people change. Sadly there’s not much people can do to alter that. I guess just keep spirits up as best you can and just let the friendships happen naturally.
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Yeah I agree with this. My hope is that in the future I can just start to get out more; once I get my **** together and get a job, just to be able to go out and sit in a nice cafe and people watch, or join some kind of club; you never know who you'll meet as life goes on and it could be the start of a strong friendship! It feels more worthwhile when it happens by chance.
 
~AyaMachi~ said:
Dudes, do I detect a blossoming bromance? ;)
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Phobos said:
Don’t knock the bromance. It’s the reason I pick on @Neil.T so much. He’s a good guy.
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(Kyon on the right. :eek:)
 
Watanabe Ken said:
I think the resurrection was referring to Rize not Kaneki, I think Kaneki was never dragon but a vessel for it and it has been feeding of him and weakening him which as we saw after his fight with Arima greatly affected his ability to heal, but seeing as he no longer has rize/dragon inside him he should be able to heal( that's if he's still alive)
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Yeah I think that's also plausible, still should be interesting to see what the CCG do next With Kaneki, and what Hide has planned
 
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