Dead thread but hey, time to continue. I gotta put this **** somewhere.
Occasionally, I'll experience something and come out of it thinking "If I had died yesterday, I would never have had that experience" and I'm thankful that I lived to have it. Today I'm thankful for Cerebus the Aardvark, for making me feel angry, and sad, and a terrible person. But at least alive.
Almost 80 issues in, I can say this of Cerebus. He's a base individual. He values and expends his effort on all the wrong things. He treats people as disposable. He ruins anything he achieves for himself and his relationships with others time and time again. He has an ego roughly the size of a continent. But for the only major character who is not human, he still manages to be the most human of all. Yet as his wealth and status grow, I'm no longer rooting so much for Cerebus to succeed (those he comes up against are still invariably worse - If not more vile or corrupt then at least more stupid and undeserving) rather I'm screaming internally at the pages and wanting to smack some sense into the stubborn, oblivious Aardvark.
Then issue 75 happened, and Cerebus got his revenge by smashing
me in the chest with a lump hammer. Despite having almost everything he thought he wanted (although not really knowing
why he wanted any of it) Cerebus has a sudden moment of realisation of what he
really wants and could have had long ago, but it's far, far too late. I've never seen those desperate and then resigned feelings of regret and lost opportunities summed up quite so poignantly as in the pages of this comic. The dawning realisation by Cerebus of what he's done, how permanent it is and
how it didn't have to be this way are
conveyed so gut-wrenchingly in Sim's layouts that I slammed the cover to my tablet shut and issued an audible "f*ck my life" to the heavens from the station platform I was sat on as I read it. Identifying to that extent with such an emotionally unstable borderline psychopath is probably not that healthy, but he certainly had his revenge for me thinking I was in any position to judge.
But would he have been happy? Can he ever be? Cerebus looks to be headed into darker territory from here...