Aion said:
*shrug* I suppose I should stop thinking about it. If I'm eventually going to dislike everything I liked at one point, I might as well just get on with it. I don't understand but there isn't much I can do.
I don't think it's a case of coming to dislike
everything you used to like, but I've gone through phases of self-loathing where I've actually come to
hate certain things I used to love. Sometimes I'll come back to them, sometimes I won't. Anime is one thing I did go away from for a while then came back to.
And as for people being old and bitter before your time... try never being able to remember a time you
weren't jaded and cynical. I've been that way since I was about seven or eight.
Zin5ki said:
I don't suffer from burnouts as much as I do from being overly particular with what I wish to watch, and having a fear of watching certain titles in case I become too attached to them to give any concern for my real-life affairs. After too much escapism, one stops caring about the things from which one escaped.
That sounds like fear of descent into okaku-ism. Probably a healthy attitude, but I think so many people do come to prefer fanasy to real life because there's so little difference these days. Living in a world - and a society - which has been totally shaped and controlled by people other than yourself, where all the laws, economies and social conventions are
actually all just completely made up nothing
will seem very real! I like to hope I'm in a fairly stable position between the real and fantasy worlds - not a total escapist, but at the same time looking on the real world with a constant wish that it could do to be a bit more fantastic and free. And this, I think, is mine and probably most escapists' problem:
Octave Mirbeau said:
"You're obliged to pretend respect for people and institutions you think absurd. You live attached in a cowardly fashion to moral and social conventions you despise, condemn and know lack all foundation. It is that permanent contradiction between your ideas and desires and all the dead formalities and vain pretences of your civilization, which makes you sad, troubled and unbalanced. In that intolerable conflict you lose all joy of life and all feeling of personality, because at every moment they suppress and restrain and check the free play of your powers. That's the poisoned and mortal wound of the civilized world."
Heavy stuff (which I got not through reading
The Torture Garden, but off the back of a Manic Street Preachers album) not that I'm not feeling in a particularly heavy mood, just a matter-of-fact one. It sums up everything that's wrong with the real world and to me, what it is that makes people prefer fantasy. And that will do for my existential tract for this month.