My reasons for leaving:
Kayls went to uni, coming to terms with her not being here when I finish work. Knowin that I have to work a week and then at the weekend I’ll be able to see her….the wait and distance will take time to get used to, were hoping to sort things out so one weekend I’ll go up, the next she’ll come down, but with plans like family birthdays, family meet ups and the expo blocking weekends, right now we can’t mentally cope with 2 weeks time apart.
Being up till 4am talking to her on Saturday night, after spending a whole day travelling round London and then going to see russel howard live, although it took away some of that loneliness, the fact that my mates gf was there was a constant reminder that I was miles away from my missus, Yesterday was a better day because we spent 2 hours on the fone. But my contract fone decided to die on me (touchscreen stopped working all together) so in a sleep deprived, missing loved one and the broken fone was the only contact to her for now, led to a bout of frustration against my fone…which has paid the ultimate price for its sins and has been smashed….awaiting a new fone for free from the fone company the contract is with.
Each day is getting better, its only 4 days till I see her again, learning to cope with it a day at a time. She’s missing me, and I want to meet her fellow halls residents. (4 girls, 2 guys) hopefully will befriend the guys so I can feel at piece with knowing that they won’t take advantage of my gf if she’s drunk or something. Trust….distance relationships are glued with this stuff, with a strong foundation and platform that me and kayls have built (coming upto 2 years now) we are completely commited to each other trust each other more than anything in the world, I just don’t trust the rest of the world or anyone who could have intentions to ruin things.
With longer working hours but the same pay, further travelling times to fight with. The cost and time getting to see her will be a bitch. Hoping to sort that out though. I might have to transfer to another place to have better peace of mind.
All the lads going back to uni will take its toll, along with cancelling gym membership I feel that I’m on the verge of a place I don’t want to go to again. basically because I will have too much time on my own, the place I don’t want to go to is: Spending excessive amounts on alcohol, going out with the crowd I used to drink with before kayls came around (there’s nothing wrong with them, they just prefer to live their lives alone and drinking to an early grave)
A social being like me just couldn’t cope with being alone for 5 nights a week, especially as my other half would be free to party any night of the week, miles and miles away from me.
Maybe by the time the expo rolls around, life will be sorted. maybe....
