More poetry, I have also done a creative project for every two weeks of this year so far and plan to post those here soon as well
Poem 5 2024
You are distractingly pretty
And have a lovely personality
An arresting combination
If noticing that
Were criminal
I’d be in handcuffs
Whenever we spend an evening together
But that’s not really the vibe
And I feel deeply contented to know something of your mind heart and soul
If not your body
Make me a bit uncomfortable sometimes perhaps
Tell me things I wasn’t sure I wanted to know, in small doses
For I would honestly rather accept you as you are, friend
Than be lost in a hopelessly idealised fantasy
The real you is actually pretty great
As it turns out
Far more than just an attractively blank canvas
Keep being part of my life, if you would
As I very much enjoy
Having you around
And this poem is probably at least marginally more interesting
Than a generic friendship day card
Purchased from Hallmark
(meows affectionately, and writes “Screw Flanders” a few times to increase word count)
Poem 6 2024
You are beautiful humans
Unimaginably sweet and soft
Full of gentle wonder and imagination
Bursting with creativity
We dance together sometimes, equal parts laughing silliness and the joy of movement
We make each other giggle awkwardly
We find words won’t always do, so we make animal sounds
We hold each other often, retreating from the world’s hurts into each other’s warmth and adoration
You are generous and giving with your love and time
I love feeding you and being fed by you, you are always most welcome in my kitchen!
I can barely imagine or remember life without you
You are more precious and important than you know
Please keep my world turning
Love like need want
I feel all of those for you
Poem 7 2024
I carry around wounds inside
Or I did
For a very long time
When there was a difference between how I felt about someone
And how they felt about me
It seemed like a recipe for disaster
An inevitable tragic fate
To feel deeply was to be a murderer of attachment
A screwed up, deluded mess
Who didn’t understand or appreciate what people offered
“JUST friends”
So much bitterness runs through so many people
When those words are uttered
I love him I love him I love him
I love her I love her I love her
I love them I love them I love them
So very very much
The sweetest most precious feelings inside me
Became volatile
In a world that can be so lacking in sincerity
Everything laden and dripping with irony and sarcasm
Shame, guilt, fear
Were such everyday every minute things
That I doubted there was another way for me to live or be
But now I know
That it often takes two to tango
In these matters
And that it was not all my fault
I loved my friends
And if I was a bit too much, perhaps they were a bit too little
In their faith and trust in me
I learned to like myself because of people like you
Thankyou for understanding me
For seeing that my heart is good
For touching it without flinching the way some others have
When they saw the scars
When they saw love bleeding out of me
Thankyou for putting your arms around me
With your kindness and acceptance
Healing becomes my everyday
To all the extraordinary, kind people
Who are my friendship family
Thankyou, thankyou, THANKYOU
For the priceless gift
Of your tenderness
I feel like I have ten mothers
Who all see the best in me
All the time
And what
Could possibly be better
Than that?
I have yet to find it
Poem 8 2024
Let’s go hunting, you said
It’ll be fun, you said
I was doubtful, but I followed you
My older brother
The air smelled of trees
And I could hear the stream
Squirrels chased each other through the canopy
We walked softly
But your heart can be so cold, like ice
I tried to harden mine, to steel it
But in truth I could not
A wolf crossed our path
And you started following it, creeping and crawling behind
Like a centipede short on legs
You were always the more nimble of the two of us
But the more graceful mover
Does not necessarily have much grace
A twig cracked under my foot
The wolf looked up, surprised
“Come on, run after it!” You yelled
And run I did
We both ran, senselessly
Bursting with fear and adrenaline
Another wolf comes
And leaps at me
I panic
And foolishly fire my gun
Blood
Pain
Everything ends
A noble spirit embiggens the smallest
So they say
I shot that beast
So it cannot run through woods again
With it’s last breath
It whimpered, looked into my shocked face
And saw me start to crack
Grief and guilt
Tearing me from within
As if I was trying to give back that creature’s life
By birthing it anew
Claws and all
From inside myself
Perhaps I cannot do this thing
Because I am a man
But I can choose to be a better one
“Never again”, I said
I will not be a bringer of death, especially for amusement
For I can say surely
Nothing is less entertaining
Even dadaists
Would shake their heads and put them in their hands
After that
I slept at home, feeling full of weighty sadness and melancholy
Until my wounds healed a bit
Then I went back into the woods
And would lie very still and watch
Walk around treading very gently
I wanted to see nature I wanted to be in it
I wanted to see that the world had not ceased to turn
See that there was life in this place
That it thrived
I hoped to find the wolf’s cubs and raise them myself, if it had any
But I found no cubs
Perhaps that wolf was still quite young
Only just setting out into the world
I longed for a deeper understanding of the forest’s inhabitants
To feel and see what most men do not
One day I fell, tripping over a branch
As I lay there, with hot pain in my leg, and bleeding
Another wolf came up to me
I was prepared to die in that moment
But the wolf gently licked my wound
And in that moment
I could forgive myself
Tears streamed down my face
Everything I had held in my shattered soul
Poured out of me
The wolf licked my face, then lay beside me
I wanted to understand the life of the wood
That creature understood me
What an unexpected blessing
To find in the wilderness
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